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On the Unknown

Lately, as sad as I am admitting this, the fear of the unknown has really grabbed my attention, but truly, I'm done ruminating on it. Yes, I have a physical disability, and yes, the changes in my body that I experience are absolutely terrifying at times. I will not sit idly by though and wait- I will push myself. Only then can I ensure that my physical challenges do not become me.

It truly amazes me at times how vulnerable and broken we can become. Having a physical disability has never affected me so much- physically, emotionally, and mentally, I am at times overcome with an intense bitterness and sadness that I never thought possible. More than ever before, I am asking, "God, why me?" But, just as quickly, I snap out of it.

God has never given me more than I can handle, nor will He ever. And when I succumb to sadness, it's amazing how He works. Placing people in my path to push me, to cheer me on, to listen.

Yes, it's true, I don't like being thought of as inspiring. But sometimes, even I need to be reminded of just how much I have accomplished.

 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jeremiah 29:11


"The only disability in life is a bad attitude." Scott Hamilton

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Unknown said…
Jess, you know we love you. Thanks for being a friend as well as a relative!
April 19, 2015 at 9:03 PM
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