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On God's Perfect Timing

There's one thing I love to do, but usually cannot do on a regular basis for various reasons.

Those who know me well, know that if I could swim every single day, I most certainly would. In water, I feel free and light. I don't need a walker, help, or a wheelchair. It's a beautiful thing, friends. Truly.

My Mom and I were walking around town yesterday. How in the world did I not know there is a pool in Reynoldsville?! it gets better. It's two blocks from me and I can get there on my own! It gets better. There's a chair lift! I'll let that sink in for a minute.

Okay, now you can imagine my pure excitement discovering this. Seriously, I'm smiling now just thinking about it and was so absolutely giddy as soon as I realized that this beautiful pool was accessible to me! Ask my Mom, I couldn't stop laughing yesterday. And when I woke up this morning, that was the first thing that I thought of.

I kept saying, "How did I not know there was a pool in Reynoldsville?!" Where have I been for the last 18 months? It is absolutely mind boggling, actually.

But really, the more I think about it, there's no way I would have been ready to embark on such a journey this time last year. It wasn't until August that I realized that I could get to the grocery store by myself. And I've only been taking myself to church for two months. Not to mention, I was nowhere near ready emotionally or mentally last summer. I was miserable and overwhelmed to the point of wanting to leave OVR. I was a mess, plain and simple.

So really, it's okay and a good thing I didn't know such a treasure existed until now.

I'm in an amazing place right now when I actually take time to reflect upon it. My apartment is becoming even better for me in terms of accessibility. And, I'll soon be getting a new power chair, along with repairs to my manual chair so I don't have to worry about falling as much. I can say with full confidence that I do love my job, not just my coworkers. I'm in the middle of getting personal care aides to help me with such things as shopping, cleaning, etc. Something I absolutely should have done 18 months ago. Again though, I was so far from being ready to even think about any of that at that time.

Change is so slow for me and I hate it. I struggle with it, it causes anxiety, and an overwhelming fear. But through all of the changes, God has been faithful. His timing is perfect. Through it all, I know that at least right now, I am exactly where I need to be.

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