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On the Sadness of Dreams

Monday morning I woke up after the most real dream I have ever had- it blanketed me in such sweet sadness that I almost couldn't bring myself to fully wake up and begin my hectic day.

I dreamt that I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. It was so real; so sweet; so sad. I desperately wanted to share it with someone- not for sympathy or equal sadness- I just wanted to be listened to. I couldn't do it, though. I made the call, but couldn't share it- it affected me that much. In the four days since, it's still very much at the forefront of my mind.

It would have been easy for me to continue in sadness, but instead I chose to put a positive spin on all of it. I am so very blessed with some sweet "babies" in my life: my girls- the original three who will forever have my heart, whom I've had the pleasure of watching turn into three amazing young ladies; Team D- the three who will forever mean so much- I will cherish the silly conversations with Rebecca, the all-boy talk with JackHenry, and the oh-so-sweet moments with my Julia- I will forever be grateful for the unmistakable, special, strong bond I have with each.

Regardless of whether or not I am ever blessed with a sweet baby of my own, I am already immeasurably blessed with these six with whom I am sure I will always be a part, and for that I am so thankful.

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