Last night I learned that one of my high school classmates overdosed, and although initially the news didn't hit me hard, today, I am reminded of how short life is, and how in a moment, our worlds can be turned on their axes. In a moment, a baby girl has been left without a Mama, and a young girl who is wise beyond her years now has to navigate life without her Mom who was her safe place, a devoted husband is left to pick up the pieces of a life cut too short so unnecessarily. Heartbroken and weary, I ask, "Why Lord?" I take comfort in knowing that she knew Jesus. Though we may not have talked in almost 15 years, I grieve with her family and her closest friends who must begin without her this side of Heaven. Life is so short in the grand scheme of things. Let's live it to the fullest, let's spread love, let's talk about Jesus, let's truly live for others, let's laugh, let's listen, let's carry each other in our darkest hours, and let's appreciate the little things, because that's what matters.
It feels like 2022 just began, but soon it will be gone. I think back to the first half of the year and seem to remember being a bit more relaxed than I am at this moment. In the second half of this year, it's as if I became a different person in ways that I didn't anticipate. I found myself even more aware of the preciousness of life, and in some ways, the true finality of life has terrified me. Is that healthy? Probably not, but it's where my heart is. I found myself developing even deeper relationships with my parents, truly appreciating their presence in my life on a different level. Conversations with my grandparents are sweeter than before May 10th. As I write this, I am realizing I don't remember my last conversation with my Grandpa and that saddens me to my core. There have been some truly sweet memories made this year- ones I hope to remember for years to come. Times with the kiddos in my life have been bittersweet- moments reminding me of my desire to have kid...
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