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On 2021

I don't really know what to say to end 2021. Every time I begin this post, I end up deleting everything just a few sentences in. Maybe it's because I am leery of anything at this point. Maybe I am wishing for a return to life as I knew it prior to March 2020. Either way, 2021 will soon be behind us in a matter of minutes. It is true- I am tired of the state of the world these last two years.

But, even still, 2021 was a good year. It was filled with joy and laughter and conversations and connection and memories that will last a lifetime. 

In many ways, it seemed as though I was barely hanging on. But then, when least expected, I had these beautiful moments that gave me just enough of a break. And maybe this is what life is and has always been. Maybe it seems tougher now because everything seems to have compounded- I don't know. 

I can be sad, and I am. But, I am so grateful for those beautiful moments. Those beautiful moments are reminders that I'll be okay, that we'll be okay. There is so much good in this world. It far outweighs the bad. I have to believe that things will get better. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not even next year. But, God is still in control- He is still on the throne.

Here's to a 2022 filled with the beautiful moments that will help us keep going. Because, really, what other choice do we have?

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