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On 2024

2024 has been beautiful and painful, amazing and heartbreaking. I hold tight to the people who have helped me grow, helped me process. At times, I didn't think I'd get to this point. In many ways, 2024 broke me. But, it allowed me to heal in real and (hopefully) lasting ways, too. It opened the door for a perspective that I didn't know I was capable of. I was able to build on improved communication skills, looking at things through a Biblical lens, realizing that the majority of the people in my life are not trying to intentionally hurt me. Perhaps this has been the biggest win for me in 2024, or maybe it's that and the fact that even still, it is okay that I'm sensitive. I feel deeply and sometimes have a hard time with those feelings. But, those feelings, coupled with being sensitive, have allowed me to develop deep friendships and relationships, to be truly present, even from miles apart.

I don't know what the next 12 months will bring, but regardless, I think I'll be okay. God is still on the throne, in control of it all, and somehow He has allowed amazing people to be in my life, and though that group seems so small at times, I am incredibly grateful for each and every one.

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