Just a Thought or Two

It feels like 2022 just began, but soon it will be gone. I think back to the first half of the year and seem to remember being a bit more relaxed than I am at this moment. In the second half of this year, it's as if I became a different person in ways that I didn't anticipate. I found myself even more aware of the preciousness of life, and in some ways, the true finality of life has terrified me. Is that healthy? Probably not, but it's where my heart is. I found myself developing even deeper relationships with my parents, truly appreciating their presence in my life on a different level. Conversations with my grandparents are sweeter than before May 10th. As I write this, I am realizing I don't remember my last conversation with my Grandpa and that saddens me to my core. There have been some truly sweet memories made this year- ones I hope to remember for years to come. Times with the kiddos in my life have been bittersweet- moments reminding me of my desire to have kid...

Last week I stumbled upon a video of someone taking an Uber in Phoenix. This wasn't just any Uber- it was a self-driving car. A few years ago, someone shared with me that they had taken one while in Pittsburgh. I was amazed, but didn't really think much of it. But, watching that video? I was giddy- I couldn't take my eyes off of it. Is it possible that soon I could have that, too? Is it possible that I'll have that freedom someday? I can only hope. As I watched it for the first time, smiling from ear-to-ear, I also found myself becoming emotional. In that moment, I thought of the one person I wanted to share it with, knowing though I couldn't just send it to him.  It's been about six months since losing my Grandpa, and though I know where he is- knowing he's with Jesus- at that time, I wanted desperately to share that with him. No person believed I would have the ability to drive a self-driving car more than he did. He reminded me of it almost every time I t...