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On Change...and Other Ramblings

Today certainly didn't start how I thought it would! Isn't it amazing how we become so easily swayed by events? It's not very often that I'm left speechless, but tonight as I reflect on the day, I just don't have anything to say.

For whatever reason, I'm having a very hard time articulating my thoughts, but I think it boils down to this: after I begin to get close to people and open up, become friends with them, etc. I don't think I know how to be a friend, especially after a "goodbye." Not a real goodbye, per se, but I guess more of a change, if that makes sense? Because of various events over the years, I'm always worried about becoming a burden. I honestly don't know what a real friendship actually looks like anymore, and as a result, tend to shy away from further contact. I know this probably makes no sense. Trust me, I'm just as confused! Right now, this is what I need to do to process the events of the day.

I don't like ending anything on a sad note, so in an attempt to stop the tears, I'll end with this: Life is a gift- smile, laugh, giggle- in all actuality, life is not that bad; hard, maybe. At times, a bit sad. But we often fail to realize how blessed we truly are.

May we take the time to truly appreciate the people in our lives! The men and women we look up to, the friends that mean so much to us, the ones that look up to us- for we never know when "Hello" may actually be a "Goodbye" we weren't expecting!

May we live, laugh, and love more! Live life to the fullest- appreciate each day, laugh like there's no tomorrow- it truly is the best medicine, and love like we've never loved before- in every relationship, cherish the little moments and let them sustain us through the tragedies!

“I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me, I'd like to be the help that you've been always glad to be; I'd like to mean as much to you each minute of the day, as you have meant old friend of mine, to me along the way.” Author Unknown

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Unknown said…
All my life, I've had friends that have come and gone. However, the ones that are gone are not necessarily gone forever. I have some friends that I haven't actually spoken to in years, yet I still consider them friends. People come into your life for a reason, and sometimes they go out of your life for a reason. But the point is, once you've made a friend, be content with the notion that even if it's just a temporary friendship, you both got something out of it. Even if it's a life lesson. And yes, life does get in the way of maintaining friendships sometimes. But it does not mean that you were a burden to that person. It may just mean that life's events have taken them away from you. But....you just never know when you may cross paths one day and pick right up where you left off.
June 12, 2014 at 5:40 PM
Unknown said…
There is not a Goodbye from me but a See you later! You have been a great person to get to know and just because I'm moving on to the next chapter only means getting closer to home. I hope you keep pushing yourself and I will keep pushing you it just won't be every day. You truly have touched my life is such a short time and I'm blessed to have you as my friend and part of my family. So NO goodbyes here but see you later.
June 12, 2014 at 7:30 PM
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